When I feel like I want more faith, God always sends me more love.

Dear Family that I love!

How are you all?! I am doing so great! I loved all of your letters so much. First I need to respond to those. 

I love that Doug got married in the temple (where he could be closest to his cute dad)! What a fitting beautiful thing!  I love that family so very much!  I miss Uncle Thayne too!   I love the temple!  It is the goal! Baptism is great, but as I have discovered many times, a lot of people have gotten baptized.  To make covenents with God and the one you love in the temple is the most beautiful goal that I could ever think of. To start a family that can be together forever and provide even half of the joy, support and love that I get from my family is totally a fairy tale!  I thinking it is fitting that our Temples look like castles sometimes. (Sorry I am a corny nerd!)  But that is the goal!  I dream of one day Edgardo and Paola entering the temple together to be sealed together forever!  That is where God has saved some of the sweetest blessings. I don't know the wife part, but I definitely know how sweet it is to be a daughter, grandaughter, sister, and friend.  I love it! 

Also that baby of ours has to be the cutest thing I have ever seen!  Oh my heck!  I am slightly jealous that you all got to see him so recently but it is fine because he will quickly realize who is his favorite aunt when I get back. 

This week was really great!  Erika is doing wonderfully!  She is such a sweet heart!  She is already planning on going back to work after being sick for such a long time. She is still really progressing but I am hoping that this whole break of us bugging her to go to church won´t stop her progression.  We gave her a DVD with a bunch of mormon messages on it. 

Paola and her family are still classic!  Josefa was going to get baptized this week but her dad is not quite going to be home so we will have to pospone it for the next week.  I would like to postpone it a little more so that her cousin can get baptized with her too.  We made sushi again last night and basically I just love them!  You should see all the things they do for us!  If Paola had the choice, I think we would live in her house!  She now plans a FHE every night.  She does the lesson and we do the game.  Good deal right!?  Last night she taught her family about the law of chasity!  I love her so much!  She was very specific and direct! Poor Javier (the cousin who we are now teaching) looked very scared as Paola basically yelled at him that he better be clean when he gets married.  At least we don´t have to do that lesson now before he gets baptized. ;)

Elder Holland came this week to my mission!!  It was so cool!  The talk was amazing!  Elder Holland is classic!  He was very intense with us.  There were parts where I was surprised at how much he was yelling at us but then I remembered that it is Elder Holland.  He told us that we are God´s investigators.  He told us that we might be a little further along than the people we are teaching, but all of the hopes and dreams that we have for them, God has for us.  He told us that if we fall away after the mission he will come and hunt us down!  He was awesome!!

What I really loved was Hermana Holland´s talk!  She basically just got up and blubbered about how much she loves each of us.  She was so cute!  That is my new thing.  Just love people!  We are missing out on so many blessings when we choose to judge, compare, have pride, or even look at our own needs before those around us.  We need so much love here!  There are so many people on this planet who just need to feel loved.... I had a really beautiful experience with love this week.  Vania was acting weird and I felt very impressed to go and give her a big hug and tell her that we just love her!  The next lesson I felt impressed over and over again that I should tell her how much God loves her!  I came to find out that she feels like she does not have enough faith.  I have found that very interesting.  When I feel like I want more faith, God always sends me love!  Love focuses me, it helps me remember and see the eternal perspective.  It is easier to see lies, and faith feels so real because the feeling of love is so real!  No wonder Moroni told us to pray for it with all purpose of heart!  Without love, it is so hard to have the motivation to do anything.  I am so tired of watching families be torn apart because they don´t have it when they could!  I am tired of seeing parents not even want to follow God for their children or men who leave their families. We need more love!  It makes things make sense!  It makes joys eternal!  It makes our lives have purpose!  I think one of the reasons that the story of the prodigal son is so sad is that the older brother missed out on the party!  He was so busy worrying about himself and his own fate that he missed out on the party of loving people! That is my new goal!  I want to just love people!  I don´t want to worry about comparing myself, or judging others ..... I just want to love them and stick with that! 

Sorry, that is my rant for the day.  

So in other news Hermana Maciel had a dream about mom!  She said that she was in hiding and wore a disguise so that we would not notice her but that she had come to Chile to see me for Christmas.  We both laughed because we know that that is actually a possibility!  Good job mom!  You have made a big enough impact here that people are dreaming about you!

Other than that life is great! I am happy as can be. Sometimes I feel a little bipolar but I remember that everyone I talked to before my mission told me I would feel that way at times.  I am happy to be a missionary and helping people accept this gospel!  Thank you for your testimonies!  I loved them!  I loved mom what you wrote when you said that God has us do things and we just have no idea how He will use these commandments to bless our lives!  It is tricky to explain that to these people but I hope I am getting better at it.  I love you all! 

Hermana Webb