Monday, December 30, 2013

"I know THIS is eternal!!"



How are you all!?  I loved seeing you guys so much!  You guys are so cute!  You should have seen me before I talked with you guys and after.  I just cried and cried.  It was pretty funny.  My companion learned the word "breathe" in English pretty quick because she kept wanting to say it to me.  (she is like you mom!)  Don´t worry, it was a happy cry.  And I testified of families a lot that night.  It was pretty funny because I just got really frustrated.  I told my companion that it gets me so angry because I have something so beautiful and so wonderful!  I want everyone to have it because there is NOTHING else that makes me SO happy!!  But people are not listening to me!  I kept wanting to say: "Don´t you see what I am trying to give to you!?  Don´t you understand how happy you could be!? Look at what you could have for forever!! Please take it!!"  In fact I think I did say it to R_____ family that night.

So you already know about half of my week but I will tell you about the other half now!  We spent the most important part of Christmas with Paola and her family.  I love them so much!  They already invited us to New Year's but we feel bad that we continue to eat her food so we are going to go to a members house instead.  But I had a great time!  Dad said in his letter that it is like these people that I meet become so much a part of my life that I can´t imagine not knowing them.  He is so right. Especially with them. They make me so happy!  The twins, Vania, and Josefa, Paola and the parents are just so great!!  They are all progressing so much and it makes me so happy! 

So Thursday we went to visit Y_____.  (Who is so cute!!)  She had the Christmas card we made for her on the top of her tree.  I made 300 cookies for Christmas this year and she was one of the ones we gave the cookies to.  She told us she loved our gift so much that she wanted to give us one.  She made us these super super beautiful scarfs that I love!!  She is so adorable.  It frustrates me to try and explain her because she is one of those people that you can´t really put words too.  "Adorable" just does not cut it.  She is just Y______!  We are still stuck where we are with her.  She loves it when we come over but she literally has NO time.  She is sweet as can be and would totally be baptized now but she has to work. 

So the funny story about her is she was super excited to tell us this story.  She kept starting the story and then getting distracted.  I knew what story she was about to tell and I was doing my best to keep her distracted.  She was going to tell us about an envelope.  I don´t know if I told you guys but we went with president and his wife to drop off a couple of envelopes to families that really needed it. We chose her family as one of those families becuase she is in so much trouble with all of the bank stuff.  We have made this goal to have more lessons with members this week and it was a bad idea! We came with a family who is also in need and also needed an envelope.  So when Y______ started telling the story I was super worried.  She told us that she got home late and tired one night and wanted to sleep but her son told her there was a sobre on her bed waiting for her.  She told us that she did not have the ganas to open it but she did anyway and found PLATA. "PLATA, chicas plata!!" Hermana G____ (the member with us) looked at her with wide eyes and said the same thing happened to me and I have the sobre.  As you can imagine, Hermana Maciel and I were, at this point, sweating bullets, and had our hearts in our mouths.  I did not know what to say. Hermana G_____ pulled out the envelope while Yesica went to go get hers.  It was obvious that the same person did the good deed and the only connection between the two women were these two idiot missionaries scared out of our pants.  They did not do anymore investigating so they don´t know who did it, but I think they do ... they just did not want to say if we did not say anything.  Ha ha ha!! it was a good story anyway.  I love them so much!  I hope I will be friends with Y______ for forever! 

Friday we had divisions so I had to do a lot.  I got to work with this cute girl who got here a week ago.  She is adorable but does not speak Spanish.  We went to the two hardest lessons that we have in the week.  The first is with the preachers son.  He is so great!  I really love being in his house.  I don´t know how this guy is so smart with such a limited book and such a limited way of interpreting it.  But he understands a lot of things really well.  It got kind of gross when the cute member we were with started Bible bashing.  He started saying we have missionaries that preach in the street every day and where are your missionaries!? (which by the way Evangélicos totally have missionaries!) I had to stop him and correct him and tell him that they do in fact have missionaries and that we know that all churches are great.  I ended up bearing a really intense testimony about families and the Book of Mormon!  I told him that he could throw lots of scriptures at me and I probably would not have the answer but I told him that I know that the Book of Mormon was true because I had read and prayed about it.  Then I happened to find this picture that mom had sent me of our family and one of Lauren (he knows her story) and I told him "I know THIS is eternal!!" He got really quiet and said 'how do you know?'  I know he wants a family forever!  I know he likes that idea!  I know he loves them so much!  I told him that I still feel the love of my sweet little sister and it is the same as when she was alive, so 'I know that relationship has NOT died!'  It was so cool!  I felt the spirit so strong.  He told me basically that he wants it to be true, but because the Bible does not say anything about it, he cannot believe.  It was so sad!  And then our cute member changed the subject to why the stake president is cool.... Oh how I love members.... sometimes.  The next day we had M_____.  He is on the other side of the spectrum.  I_______ uses his head way too much and M______ uses his heart way too much.  It is really funny because we have divisions every week and we always have these two people and at the end of the day the Hermana I am with always looks at me and says ... your sector is hard!!  It really is not but we do have crazy lessons with these two.  M______ is so great but he does not care what it says in the Bible he just believes what he feels in his heart.  So we are still stuck trying to help him understand that we will be resurrected and that Jesus was not a sinner.  That was the new discovery.  He told me that Jesus had to have been a sinner because if not he would not be able to relate with us.  It turned out to be really cool because I went to one of the best scriptures I know about the Atonement in Alma 7.  I read 11 and 12 with him and he said that is fine, but I still think he sinned.  The Spirit told me to read a little more so I looked down and in 13 it explains perfectly.  It says first that M_____ was right, up until that point the Savior really could not relate with us because it is one of the only things that the Spirit does not know.  But then it says that our perfect Savior took upon him the sins of the world.  I got to bear this testimony of how I know that the Atonement was that much prettier because not only did he sacrifice for my sins, he as a sinless man paid for my sins so he could relate with me perfectly.  He does know what it is like to be a sinner even though he NEVER sinned!  That is pretty ironic.  I love my Savior!  He lives!  And I know that he paid the ultimate price for me even though he was the last one to deserve it!  I am finally starting to understand what it means to use His atonement every day!  I need Him to teach me, to strengthen me, to cleanse me, and to forgive me.  You guys should read the talk by a 70 in general conference.  I don´t remember his name but it is called "Will you also be made whole?"  It is in the second session on Saturday.  It is a beautiful talk about how we need His atonement for every part of our lives.  I love this new idea.  That with this infinite act of love, we have the power to fill our lives with love too.   Enough love to completely change our hearts and only want good.  (Mosiah 5 and Mornoni 7)  I think that is really all God´s power is.  Priesthood power has the exact same trates as charity.   It says that the Atonement was a great act of love!  God´s love is so pure and so infinite that he has the power to use that love to make us holy!  He can use that power to save us from satan.  That is why satan cannot be stronger, because his power is hate and we all know that love is always stronger than hate.  If you don´t believe me you can watch whichever Disney movie you choose!!  ;)

The girl I did divisions with the whole time kept asking me when she was going to know Spanish like me. I did not know I knew Spanish, so that was fun.  It turns out I learned a lot without really noticing it.

Saturday we went to visit that family that I told you about last week.  They are so great!  They are doing great!  The dad thanked us right off for the visits because their home is already changing.  He told us that they could feel more peace in their home that week!  Yes!!  They also went to church on Sunday!!  That is HUGE!  People never go to church that fast.  We found them on freaking Wednesday and a week and a half later they were at church.  We have another appointment with them this week so I am super excited. 

Sunday was rough!  I miss Lauren!  I love her so much!  I read all of the book that Sara sent me and it made me really happy!  I hate that she had to leave us and four years is a long time!  I cried a lot.  I made a goal though.  Lauren hated contention.  She would run away as fast as the Spirit would if we let it enter the room.  So I made the goal to stop letting contention enter my life.  I don´t want to feel angry.  Lauren did not like contention because it made it harder to love.  She was so good at loving that contention just did not make sense.  It did not matter if she did not get what she wanted she wanted to love people.  She knew how much better it was.  Anyway ... so that is my goal.  It started before New Years, so it is not my New Years resolution;).  I love you all!  You are all an example and a power in my life!  We have a family with power because we know how to love!  We are good at it! Even if it has to be on different parts of the world and even different parts of the veil!  And, because God loves us enough we are going to be whole again one day!  Because His love is more powerful than death!  I am so grateful for my Savior who made that possible for me!  He lives!  He is real!  And His love can save us! 

Love you all! 

Hermana Webb.

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